So my mother uses 

the r word 

over anything now.

its a new thing.

its about the media she’s uptaking.

its about the people around her.

its about how she sees people and things.

its why I will never have the sparkle of her eye.

I look and sound so much like her,

I wonder,

does she call herself that in her head?

What’s really strange?

There was once a day

She told everyone how smart I was

That my first word was a phrase

Mimicking hers

Talking about me

Screaming for being changed

“mean momma”

Our connection’s trend.