Why yes I am.
But it’s not just trauma wear,
Its a body built different.
Each slip, fall, beat down,
Exponentially impacting my flesh sense.
Built from birth,
Thinner skinned than most…
The pain was more than
But I never knew,
So I pushed right through,
Accumulating injuries,
That would never heal,
See not all bodies are made to.
Some of us don’t make proper scar tissue…
Leaves me wondering:
If that extreme pain isn’t made up
And is here to stay,
What of the damage done
Mentally?
Do my feelings also not heal as efficiently?
They do correlate higher depression rates,
For people like me,
Born of constant deficiency.
Maybe my goal to heal,
Was pointless all along,
As each effort made,
Seems only dig me deeper.
August 16, 2023 at 10:45 am
Born of constant deficiency.
This sounds like childhood abuse, never feeling worthy
It happens before the brain develops
I feel that way
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August 16, 2023 at 11:42 am
I’m very sorry you know these feelings.
I was born physically and mentally disabled. It’s only natural to try and teach/parent a child to be ‘normal’ according to a world that has yet to understand the differences.
It would be considered a form of abuse, but I hold compassionate space for ignorance. As I too continued the abuses for years thinking it was what I needed to succeed.
Instead it broke me.
Oh well.
Cautionary tale it is.
May it bless another.
Maybe even prevent the same from happening.
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August 16, 2023 at 1:03 pm
You have a great attitude for all you have been threw
I was born kind of normal, with no glaring defects
My disability was being born to a violent narcissist
Trauma upon a child is insidious
Hopefully, our blogs help some
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August 16, 2023 at 1:34 pm
Ah yes, I received that too. Hard not to. I feel like our society brews them as it demands repression and hyper individualism.
Thank you for ur kind words and sharing ur journey to healing.
May it help another
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